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我和蕭邦有個 約

終於哭出來了~~ 一份被我隱藏許久的自卑的心情 在教授面前爆發出來了!
我可以接受任何人給我的指教與批評 只是氣自己彈了那麼久為什麼就是彈不到那個標準
甚至達不到自己內心的那個聲音
如果連自己的感覺都無法follow
我有什麼資格彈琴給人聽 我有什麼資格跟人家說我唸音樂系
沒錯! music is very subjective. 但 我就是無法有自信的跟人家說 “這是我彈的蕭邦!”
我很努力 很用力的 去perform 理想中“蕭邦的蕭邦!”我錯了嗎?
現在的我 既彈不出理想中蕭邦的蕭邦 我連我自己的蕭邦都一點一滴消失了...
彈琴不是一件很愉快的事嗎? 為什麼我會彈到掉淚 彈到理不出頭緒 彈到失去了自己?
欣賞音樂不是一件很主觀很enjoyable的事嗎? 為什麼我會因為被否定看法而不肯定自身的想法?
從小就是這樣 過強的自尊心底下 有著頑強的固執和害怕被否定的自卑
一心想把這一面的我隱藏起來 只是有時 積的太滿 滿到我無法負荷 失去力量 而絕堤了

每天都固定和蕭邦 舒伯特這兩個浪漫派時期的兩大音樂家有個早晨的約會
我想 今天我要失約了... 等我理好自己 想通了之後 再來和這兩位來個浪漫之約吧!

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Sometime I feel very angry because I can't finish some video games because the boss is too strong. But I will keep playing, cause I love video games. I will assume that you love music as much as I love video games. And I envy you for doing what you love as a study or even a job.

I guess these overcoming of obstacles will help us truly appreciate our "game/music."

P.S. I am practicing Winning Eleven 8 recently. Thanks for buying the book

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Liliian

Don't give yourself too much pressure!
I know you said it is hard not to do that but I think it is impossible to impress everyone (believe me, I suffer from the exact same pain b/c i always try to please and impress everyone i know) Loosen up and relax.. Just do your best...Try to impress "yourself" when you can do that then other people's opinion won't matter that much, right?

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